A Small Things That Hurt Me

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 I’m not feeling better today. There’s something make me hurt. Not about love with a boy, because I never felt it. This is about my school. Believe it or not, I don’t like my school, seriously. Maybe it’s ordinary problem with other teenagers. But today, I feel the climax I’m not enjoy in here. It make me hurt. Very deep hurt. I’m not over, but that is my feeling, my heart said. There’re much  reason I don’t like in here, it very different with my other friends:
1)   I’m get bored in here. I think not bored caused lazy or something like that, I feel saturated. From kindergarten until senior high school, I’m at the same school. I don’t have different zone. It’s always same.  I mean I’m not hopes the condition are change because my mother always said, “Don’t ever over hopes to change the condition, because it never change. It depends on you.” I know that, but I’m not okay live and getting school at the same zone for a long time. But, I’m not weak. I stay in here for a long time. Sometimes, I get jealous with my friends getting school in different school. I wanna to feel it, but I know I can’t forcing the condition. It’s my school, my life.
2)   My friends. I don’t like to have friend. U think there’s something wrong with me. No, I didn’t. Why I didn’t like to have friends? Because I don’t like to hurt my heart. Maybe, you say I’m mad. Strange. But it’s me. Anciently, I’m not like this if you know. But, once again, the condition make me change. I mean it’s not better change. I’m not easy to associate, I don’t like to have friendship. It’s nonsense. When we got a new friend, the old friend will be forgotten. I feel the same feeling. So, I don’t like to have friend. I can stand alone, because I think for what we having a friends but there’re person to be forgotten? I’m not anti-social, I just feeling better being alone. It’s not problem with me.
3)   The Staff and Teachers. Soo,- why its one reason I don’t like in the school? Noo, they’re not give me much task because it just normal. I don’t like them because…they’re hurt me. I think, they’re a second parents in school but they often give me hurt. Sometimes, I think they’re not second parents because their attitude or their physical it’s not like the role model. I’m so sorry to say it, if u don’t like my statement, don’t be continue to read this. Is that called teacher if they’re give a bad words? Is that called teacher if they’re give a physical punishment when the students get wrong or naughty? Is that called teacher if they’re told the badness of their students behind? And said, A is diligent and Z is so naughty and being comparation. I think they’re not worthy to said like a teachers. I know maybe being a students is difficult and being the teacher is too.  Sometimes, maybe we crazy act, getting lazy to do something about subjects, getting noisy and shouted, looking for attention, it just cause we‘ve get saturated. Bored. It’s not big problem and the teacher should not to over give punishment.
      It’s my statement. If u don’t like it, once again, don’t continue to read this. I just say what I don’t like it. I feel not better, I’m not the well person, I’m just try to be better. I know it’s a controversial critic, if u want to catch me I ready for you. It just my opinion, Guys. Soo- thank you if u understand me.

ps:
-Fatimah Aulia Rahma, 16 year old-



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  1. Arethaaa's blog27 November 2015 pukul 21.54

    Komentar ini telah dihapus oleh pengarang.

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  2. Arethaaa's blog27 November 2015 pukul 21.55

    You better do something that makes you feel better. I know it's very hard, and in the whole world there is no good people, i mean very-very good people that can understand u want, can understand your way. But making alone yourself i Think that is false. I know, you have same friends, school and other since you're kindergarten and that situation is very bored. But i know you girl, you are a good girl that have more more ideaaa. Maybe you must find another hobbys or jobs maybe and i wish u find another happiness too ^^ keep smile and Fighting~!!

    BalasHapus
  3. Fatimah Aulia Rahma28 November 2015 pukul 03.47

    haloo, Aretha :) I think now, I just want to being alone. I just wanna know more about myself and talk from heart to heart with myself. I think not really 'alone' because I still have another person who loved me so well, likemy parents, my best-friends, and actually, Allah SWT. Of course u are include the part of them! Miss you, Teteh :)

    ps: I'm sorry late to reply ur comment. Thanks for reading!

    BalasHapus

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